Depression

It took me days to write about this.. It drains my energy, hope and drive, making it difficult to do what i need to feel better. 

It puts a negative spin on everything, the way we see ourselves, the situations we encounter, and expectations for future.

At times i feel i've no purpose in life.

Depression isn't the absence of happiness, it doesn't manifest as tragic melodrama and it cant always be noticed by those who don't know what to look for. It doesn't present only during times of corresponding darkness and uncertainty and cant be exiled by times of relative joy or contentment.  

It hurts like hell, so much so that after a while the acceptance of the pain becomes a matter of fact and second nature.

It is so hard to overcome those feelings, it is so hard to make yourself believe there is hope even when the evidence of it is all around you. This is a destructive lie depression tells you.  

It gets into your head and never leaves unless you put all pressure in to your head and blasts with all the emotions.. It drains you..